Yesterday I was listening to Robert Allen’s webinar, “Building Your Billion Dollar Information Empire.” I’m getting ready to launch my book, From Scared to Sacred, Lessons in Learning to Dance with Life. I thought I could pick up some tips that could be helpful. If you aren’t familiar with Robert Allen, he is one of the gurus of information marketing. As I listened to him, I heard him say, “You don’t want to write your book about you—that isn’t what people need or want to read.” (Those may not be the exact words but that was the essence of what I heard.)
Ouch! That just stuck a knife in the low grade insecurities I had when I started this book four years ago. “Why would people want to hear my story? I’m not special. I don’t want to put myself out there in this vulnerable, naked way.” The book is my story of learning to listen and apply my internal spiritual guidance lessons to my life. It is an honest reflection of the dance of the human and the spirit in life told mostly in first person. And if I do say so myself, it is a beautiful book!
I have people who keep asking me, “When is your book coming out?” because they want to read my book. People who have read it, tell me that I’m going to change lots of lives with it and still there must be some low grade fear simmering there that the statement scored a direct hit. My ego wants to tell me that no one wants to read the book and is using a statement by an “expert” to prove that it is right. Instead of the inflated, “I’m better than everyone” ego, mine is the ultimate saboteur.
Fortunately I had a client calling me an hour after the webinar ended so I had to get centered so I could be of service to him. I did my normal pre-client meditation and slipped into that stream of connection that brings me the messages from Spirit and almost immediately I knew that what I heard on the webinar was simply reflecting back to my own fears.
My purpose is to inspire people to tune in and listen to the expert inside; to use my stories both in writing and performance to help us laugh and cry together about this beautiful journey of experience life as a human; to help people heal the wounds of their past that keep them from connecting with their own beautiful spirit power; to help others remember how amazing the world is through my photography; to fully live in this dance between the spirit self and the human self without judging the human part for its doubts and fears; and to be very kind to myself as learn again and again that no one else’s path or purpose is exactly like mine.
Do you see the words “Billion Dollar Information Empire,” anywhere in that purpose statement? I don’t. I may, through fully living my purpose, make millions of dollars. But when I make the money the focus, I feel off purpose. I find when I’m doing things on purpose, the money flows and when I try to be like others, the flow stops. I have been so supported by the universe in the last four years as I wrote this book. Everything I have needed has shown up as I needed it. Why would I decide to doubt that kind of support? Because that is what we humans do. Bless our fearful hearts!
I worked through my own doubts and fears and came back to center, knowing that there is someone out that that my book is written in the exact way needed for that person to connect with his or her own higher self. In fact, there are many of those people out there.
I went to bed last night feeling as though I had had quite a spiritual work out. I woke up this morning energized and ready to move forward guided by my spirit connection not, an outside expert. No surprise that in my email this morning was a lovely email form Christine Kloser, who is an expert at helping transformational authors, entitled “The Power of Your Story” had to smile at that one! Yes indeed, there is power in our stories. And people do want to read them. Funny how the universe reflected that back to me, isn’t it? I love how this all works.
I moved back to being excited about being able to share my journey with you. I’m thankful for yet another reminder that when fear comes up, it isn’t something to judge, it is something to love yourself through. It can be quite a spiritual workout to see what is happening and shift our energy but it is so worth it.
Have you ever had an experience like this? Do you look for experts to avoid following what you already know inside? Please share your comments or your own story.
PS. Thanks to Robert Allen and Christine Kloser for being players in the drama in my head, standing in to reflect back to me exactly what was going on in my subconscious mind.